Reflection: An Unexpected Break

I took an unexpected break from blogging and most social media. It started while Munchkin and Daddy were gone and continued after they got back. I just didn’t have anything to write. I was stuck in a rut because my life was (and honestly is) at a standstill due to the injury. I felt like I was going in a circle with no way out. Frustration had set in – especially when I kept hearing “You’re still on crutches? Man, you’ve been injured forever.” Yep, thanks for the reminder. lol!

I decided to just take a break and focus on other aspects of life. We’re in a brand new season where Munchkin is going to college classes while Daddy is working and attending online classes. I’m no longer a homeschool mom plus I’m not able to get around like normal. It was a huge blow as I couldn’t stay busy during the transition. My life was completely upside down and not in a crazy-fun way.

I’m the type of person who likes to stay busy either mentally or physically when there are a lot of changes taking place in my life. For whatever reason, I couldn’t focus like I normally would and doing physical tasks on a larger scale was out of the question. I couldn’t even work on my home. Talk about frustration.

Somewhere along the way, I realized that I wasn’t truly turning all of this over to the Lord. I had sort of given it to Him, but not really. I was trying to gain control of a situation where I really didn’t have any control. In doing so, I was creating a whole different type of frustration. While, in my head, I knew that it was silly to try to control the situation, the reality is that I was doing just that.

With this realization, I was able to take a step back from the frustration of the situation and start to honestly assess things with a clear mind. I was once again able to mentally focus on things that were important to me. Knowing my personality, I know that I’m going to need to conscientiously give things to the Lord each day, and I have a plan for that. I’ve started a chronological reading of the Word where I’m taking notes. I’m writing down prayer requests and answers. I’m making a real effort to allow the Lord to work in my life rather than try to control all the little details.